I feel AWFUL today. D: I don't ever feel sick like this, but today I am. x__x I feel like I could throw up any second now or something. So what am I doing? Eating Cheez-Its. They're actually settling my stomache. XD

So uh. I have new art up? Wolves~ I've been drawing them more and more often. :3 I'm trying to work on anthro forms, mostly, because I admire GoldenWolf insanely andandand yeah. D: I just WISH I was that good.

Well, I just finished reading Hannibal, and I have this bizarre desire to write Jonathan and Hannibal meeting one another. XD I'm still trying to figure out how I can manage that without making it seem totally bizarre, but I'm going to make an attempt. They're very similar in my mind; both have that cool calculated attitude, even if one of them is obsessed with fear, and the other with taste. I'll post it up here when I finish it. \o/

I guess that's all today. Ciao~

“Often, in writing, one is presented with varying tones. It adds a certain complexity to the piece that people find compelling – after all, life is never just “ peaceful” or “raging”. There are always underlying emotions, so authors see fit to follow the same. In “The Rattler”, the tones of duty and respect reflect the man’s reluctance to kill the snake, but his understanding of the necessity to do so. For anyone with a reverence for nature itself, this idea isn’t very surprising. Life is precious, and the man rightly treats it so. The only surprising thing in this particular case is the life that he’s valuing – a snake, which many people have a great fear for. Still, he puts aside any alarm or disgust to deal with the issue he’s been presented with, so he can make the rest of the ranch safe.”

The above paragraph was written for a tone paragraph for a story called “The Rattler”. It was supposed to reflect good writing skills, but Mrs. Pittman said it was too flowery and should’ve been more concise. Keep in mind that this was supposed to be a paragraph for an AP EXAM. DDDDx

Maybe I just REALLY FAIL at taking criticism, but allow me a moment to say WHAT. THE. FUCK. D<

Hell to the no. That’s one of the best paragraphs I’ve written, and it’s filled with my voice. You know what she gave me? AN 86. DX AN 86, I TELL YOU. Just thinking that other students may have been far simpler and gotten a better grade pisses me off like nothing else. I was taught to give your reader a HOOK to lead up to the paragraph you’re presenting.

Argh. I’m so ticked off about this mess. Dx –fumes-

I’ve been given a light in my eyes to show me some reality. And I’ve made a decision. I want a hero in my life. I want to marry a Spiderman. Yeah, that sounds absolutely ridiculous. But if you look at Spiderman and how he treats his MJ, well… What’s not to love about that? He loves her more than anything else, and she supports him, no matter what. It’s a fantastic thing. I want that in life.

So, week one of being “stable pikachu soul” has gone well. Thinking of Zephyr in this form that has been “mine” as long as I can remember is so incredibly comforting. Plus, if it’s analyzed, I don’t find it too different from how I feel right now. I’m still social, still warm, and still kind to the people who love me – none of that has changed. But I’m also more prepared for challenges, ready to give a shock to anybody who thinks they can handle me wrong. Most people wouldn’t find a pikachu inspiring, but my sparky dæmon is fantastic. I may end up reverting back to a beagle though. I don’t really know that I’ve changed THAT dramatically. I just think I need a break from being “defined”.

Also, English is proving to still be my favorite class so far. I overwhelmingly love our assignments – up to now, I haven’t been faced with anything that I can’t absolutely stand. That could change (we have a college application thing due Monday), but right now it’s pleasurable. I’m doing well, and the lessons in tone are a mix between informational and review. Not to mention I’ve become a bit more outgoing (ie, signing up for Journalism and saying “screw Alex Thompson, he can use me if he’s smart” and that’s always a good thing. That’s my campaign, right?

And it worked, too. (Which also counts.) He ended up putting me up as a Creative Writing section for the Newspaper, which is good. That fuels my talents. \o/
…I don’t update my journal enough. D: I guess it’s because I’m SO DAMN LAZY. *is lazy*

Uhh. I’m finishing up my end of an Art Trade. A POKE’MON one. 8D She did my Pika (and it’s fantastic, too <3) and I’m doing two poocheyna for her. I worry that mine won’t be as good, since mine’s traditional, but… I’m trying my best. D: WRITING IS MY TALENT. Doodling is my obsession.

Jess – “And 99 red balloons go by.” <3
Mary – “Doctor, doctor, give me the news. I’ve got a bad case of loving you.” ;D
Kris – “Every little thing you do is tragic.” – One poet to another? (Your lyrics were hard to find. D: )
And last, but definitely not least, Anders – “I’m living for the only thing I know, I’m running and not quite sure where to go, and I don’t know what I’m tapping into, hanging by a moment here with you.” :3

Joker
[ ] You have a dark sense of humour.( I laugh at horror movies, so does alot of people but meh)
[x] People often tell you you're 'crazy', 'weird', 'a freak' and other words to that effect.
[x] You like wearing bright colours even if they clash.
[x] You don't tend to make a lot of sense.
[ ] You are self-obsessed.
[ ] You will do anything for a laugh.
[ ] You can't laugh at yourself very easily.
[x] You're smiling a lot of the time.
[X] You are intelligent.
[ ] You like to be the centre of attention.
[ ] You enjoy the work of the Marx Brothers.
Total: 5

Two-Face
[ ] You are a Gemini.
[ ] You seem to have two sides to you that different people see.
[x] You have taken revenge on a bully.
[x] You have/had a burn or scar or something similar visible for over two months.
[x] You believe in chance and fate.
[x] You tend to be paranoid.
[ ] You consider yourself unattractive.
[ ] You feel noone can truly like/love you for who you are.
[x] You have trouble making decisions by yourself.
[ ] Blackmail is a completely acceptable method to use in getting what you want.
Total: 5

Penguin
[ ] You love birds.
[ ] You consider yourself a complete gentleman/lady.
[x] You have had an overprotective mother.
[ ] You always keep an umbrella in your bag just in case.
[ ] You are always dressed smartly.
[x] You were/are bullied in your youth.
[ ] You consider yourself obese.
[ ] You have a lot of connections.
[X] You want to work with animals in some way.
[x] You want to run your own nightclub.
Total: 4

Scarecrow
[ ] You like to scare people.
[ ] You have a reclusive nature.
[ ] Your life is ruled by research/work.
[ ] You are scared of birds.
[ ] You are tall and skinny.
[X] You take/have taken psychology at school/university/college.
[ ] You feel your parents were loveless towards you.
[x] You were born out of wedlock.
[ ] You used to pick on animals as a child by hurting them or scaring them.
[X] You have/had religious fanatics in your family.
Total: 3

Riddler
[x] You love puzzles and riddles.
[ ] You have red/ginger hair.
[ ] You have OCD.
[x] You are quirky.
[x] You consider yourself a 'smooth talker'. (When I want to be, yeah.)
[X] You are an intellectual. (or so I am told)
[x] You get high marks on your texts/exams. (Homework, not so much, because I don't do it. xD)
[ ] Most of your body is covered in tattoos.
[ ] You seldom win in physical fights.
[x] You complete computer games with ease.
Total: 6

Mr Freeze
[ ] You prefer cold weather.
[ ] You want to be cryogenically frozen.
[x] You have lost a loved one to a terminal illness.
[ ] You go/have gone to boarding school.
[ ] You are a loner.
[x] You go all out to hurt someone who hurt you.
[x] You would do anything for the one you love.
[ ] Winter is your favourite season.
[ ] You have poor blood circulation.
Total: 3

Ra's Al Ghul
[x] You are manipulative. (I can be very manipulative. XD)
[ ] You would love to get rid of everything and start the world again from scratch.
[ ] You want perfect environmental balance.
[ ] Science is/was your favourite subject.
[X] You consider yourself a spiritual person.
[ ] You consider your age to not be an issue.
[x] You want a son.
[ ] You keep yourself fit.
[X ] You want to live forever. (I would love to watch the changes as time passes. XD)
[ ] You see the world as decadent and corrupt.
Total: 4

Bane
[ ] You consider yourself as physically strong.
[ ] You go the gym a lot.
[x] You have an addictive personality. (I... Think so? o.o)
[ ] You have been to prison.
[x] When you were younger, you had a teddybear that you took everywhere. (A pikachu, but it counts.)
[ ] You had a classical education.
[ ] You have/had nightmares involving bats.
[ ] You are violent.
[ ] You do not explain your actions.
[ ] You have a Mexican heritage.
Total: 2

Clayface
[ ] You like B-Movies.
[ ] You want to be an actor/actress.
[ ] You are a good liar.
[ ] You make sculptures.
[ ] You enjoy the work of Boris Karloff.
[ ] You have had plastic surgery.
[X] You have been in a car accident.
[ ] You hate remakes.
[ ] You can't swim.
[x] You reference films all the time.
Total: 2

Killer Croc
[ ] You were born with a medical condition that affects your body on the outside.
[ ] You were/are raised by a member of your family that wasn't/isn't your parents.
[ ] You enjoy your own company.
[ ] You have quick reflexes.
[ ] You enjoy wrestling.
[X] You are a good swimmer.
[ ] You can run very fast.
[ ] You grew up without your mother.
[ ] You enjoy circus sideshows.
[ ] You are muscular.
Total: 1

Black Mask
[ ] You come from a well-off/wealthy family. (We don't STRUGGLE, but we're not wealthy either.)
[X] You had an accident/serious injury as a child.
[ ] You hate hypocrisy above all things.
[x] Someone has broken up with you in public.
[x] You are accident-prone.
[ ] You consider yourself as unlucky.
[x] You are determined.
[ ] You enjoy films like Turistas, Wolf Creek, SAW and Hostel.
[ ] You like to intimidate people.
[ ] You want to be the top dog.
Total: 4

Ventriloquist/Scarface
[ ] You are meek and mild.
[ ] You want to be a ventriloquist/have a dummy.
[ ] Your favourite film is Scarface.
[ ] You like gangster-related media and/or clothing.
[ ] If you could live in any time, it would have the 1920's
[ ] You tend to verbally abuse people.
[ ] You have a speech impediment.
[ ] You let other people take the blame rather than yourself.
[ ] You call your nearest and dearest 'Sugar'
[ ] You have an Italian heritage.
Total: 0

Mad Hatter
[X] You are shy. (To an extent.)
[x] You have/had feelings for someone who didn't feel the same.
[ ] Alice In Wonderland is your favourite book/Disney film.
[X] You love tea.
[x] You have a lot of hats.
[x] You have been called delusional.
[ ] You are immature.
[ ] You identify more with children than adults.
[X] You sometimes have trouble separating reality from dreams or your imagination.
[x] You like to rhyme.
Total: 7

Man-Bat
[ ] You love bats.
[ ] You are deaf or have hearing problems.
[ ] You want to be a scientist.
[ ] You tend to think illogically.
[X] You feel comfortable in the dark.
[X] You are instinctive.
[ ] You love fruit.
[x] You wish you could fly.
[X ] You have a strong family life.
[ ] You are married.
Total: 4

Let's see...
-goes back to count-
It's a safe bet that I'm a mix of the Mad Hatter and the Riddler?
I relate more to the Joker than I find comfortable. XD

Why am I posting another journal so soon? Because of my intense paranoia. XD I'm worried that I insulted some people with my last one, so I don't want it on my main page anymore.

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What? I hate thinking that I might've upset somebody. Really, it wasn't meant to offend anyone. It was simply my opinion. And if it sounded angry, it really wasn't. Admittedly I was frustrated, but not angry. Call me a coward if you want, but I don't like that I might've accidently offended someone. Some of you know me well enough to understand that I meant no offense, and some of you don't. So new journal comes.

But seriously, damn, I'm self-concious as hell, ya'll. I am. If someone says ANYTHING about not liking my Jonathan, I become way obsessive and comb over his character. =/ Call it silly, but I take my roleplaying very seriously. And especially now, since I've seen people roleplay him that are like... Way better. Before it was just me. And I'm intensely paranoid about it. If I see someone complaining about Cillian!Scarecrow, I automatically want to start stammering apologies. If someone says they prefer double-personality!Scarecrow, I feel guilty and want to explain my reasoning. Because yes, it's my interpretation of the character, but if other people aren't ENJOYING my interpretation, then what the hell is the point? D:

...That being said, don't hesitate to tell me if you seriously think I'm doing something wrong, either. XD I'm a weird person. Oh well. I can't even try to explain my reasoning. x)

...Damn. More silly rambles.

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OH!
Haha. Funny moment yesterday. /attempt at topic chang

We were in JROTC, and we were talking about candles, right?
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No, wait.
I'm not sure I want to tell that story either.
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There are people on here who know me in real life, and if I EXPLAIN that... Oh heck no.
*flees*
-Todd